Breaking Free!

You know that moment when you feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders?  I feel like I have had this moment a LOT lately.  And when I say a LOT I mean, it has felt like an overwhelming, exhausting part of my being.  It has been in every aspect of my life and I can't seem to catch a break from me. Do you know what I mean?  Have you been there?

Well, this is me BREAKING FREE!  In the past two days I have suddenly realized that I CAN break free and I WILL!  I would love for you to join me on this journey and struggle.  I am by no means a writer, but I am going to "try" and journal my efforts so I have something to look back on and see what the LORD has done in my life.  

I am tired of the busy life (I LOVE and LIVE to be busy!)  BUT there are moments that I feel I am missing.  I am being too distracted and not focused in the right areas.  

I have some HUGE goals for this next year(I will share those in a later post)...I know, I know it's a little early for New Year's Resolutions, but I am starting mine now because, well I need to act on them NOW.  They are not things that can wait.  They are not things that I am willing to wait for.  I want to start living my life now, and not some time in the future!

I could go on and on about how life has brought me down and about the circumstance in life, and how they just seem to keep getting bigger and more overwhelming.  But that is not the point of this.  The point of this is to see beyond what is out of my control and to place it all with GOD.  Because when HE is in control my life is SO MUCH BETTER!  I will live my life with HIM in control of every area of it. 

I know this post is kind of scrambled all over the place.  My mind these days seems to be all over the place- ever read the poem if you give a mom a muffin?  I don't know who wrote it but it seems to fit my life perfectly!  If you haven't read it you probably should, and you can check it out  here.  I am constantly distracted by what needs done, that I don't end up accomplishing all that much at the end of the day.  Instead I have spent the day spinning in circles and keeping plenty busy, but having nothing to "show" for it.  I know, I know, I have four small children and and they alone can keep me running in circles...why is it that they always want what someone else has but 5 minutes after the fact, so I have to do everything all over again?! Anyway, (like I said distracted!) I am going to get away from this distracted busy life.  I am going to for the first time in my life make goals, and come up with rewards for those goals.  I am going to REALLY spend time with my family. Not just be there in body, but in mind also...I find as I am playing with my children that my mind drifts.  It drifts to everything I should be doing, but what should I really be doing?  I should be spending that time with my children, really with my children.  Helping them, teaching them, and being there for them.  I mean come on when life is this cute-how can you ignore them?

Away with all the distractions. I feel pulled in so many ways that I use the computer as an escape.   A way to get away from the busy...but that isn't right.  That is not how life is to be used.  If I was a better time manager, I wouldn't need to escape because I found I would have a lot more time for that! I am choosing to make this public as a way to hold myself accountable.  And maybe as a way to encourage others to choose to really live!  

Until next time,

Ashley